It all started with a Doctors appointment and a diagnosis that would change my life forever. I was told I had fibromyalgia by a Rheumatologist. I had no idea at that time what a Rheumatologist even was and really had no idea what fibromyalgia meant for my life. I actually made a joke like ok give me a pill and I will continue to get over this neck and back injury so I can get back to work and my life. The doctor actually laughed with me a little and then said no, sorry can't just take a pill and there is no cure. At that moment I just remember my ears kinda started ringing and he was speaking but I understood nothing, he sounded like a parent on a peanuts cartoon.
Ok now what do I do? I started a journey of pill after pill, treatment after treatment, some approved some not. Will explain more on that not approved thing later (so fun and expensive) thanks again Mom don't know where I would be without you. They were now in control of my life... the doctors, the pills, the injuries, the Fibromyalgia, it all was now deciding my life. I was still so young and had so many dreams that did not include physical therapy, every pill you could probably think of Acupuncture, Chiropractic and every X ray and MRI and don't forget the blood work. I felt like a inflammed pin cushion or voodoo doll that would probably glow if you put me in a room with a black light due to all the radiation. Again I make jokes because what else can you do but laugh at how crazy your life has become.
Fibromyalgia had now taken over My life and had changed all my plans. I wasn't getting any better and now felt completely out of control. All the medication I was on due to my injuries and now fibromyalgia were not ok to take if I wanted any babies. In the beginning that wasn't an issue no kids yet but eventually even though the doctors said your body won't be able to handle the pain without the medicine and you can't take medicine and be pregnant so no babies would be easier on my body. Ok, so now fibromyalgia was not only going to take my career and fun in my life but also my ability to have my own children. No not My life...
I did end up having a child even though the doctors really felt I shouldn't or my body might not react well to a pregnancy. I was over these things controlling My life. I had a beautiful baby girl because that was at least part of My dream. I really wanted to give birth to two children but what is that saying.... you make plans and god laughs. Well he must really laugh all the time when I make plans...
Until next time... Proud Fibromyalgia Warrior
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